What if you lost everything about yourself—and it would kill you to find it? A galvanizing riddle that is just as unmooring as it seems, this sharp character-driven odyssey explores a future challenged by our quickly changing world and the choices we must make to save what matters most.
by Lisa Brideau
Sourcebooks Landmark, May 2023
The truth doesn’t always set you free…
Ess wakes up alone on a sailboat in the remote Pacific Northwest with no memory of who she is or how she got there. She finds a note, but it’s more warning than comfort: Start over. Don’t make yourself known. Don’t look back.
Ess must have answers. She sails over a turbulent ocean to a town hundreds of miles away that, she hopes, might offer insight. The chilling clues she uncovers point to a desperate attempt at erasing her former life. But why? And someone is watching her…someone who knows she must never learn her truth.
In Ess’s world, the earth is precariously balanced at a climate tipping point, and she is perched at the edge of a choice: which life does she want? The one taken from her―and the dangerous secret that was buried―or the new one she can make for herself?
« It’s rare for a book to be a taut page-turning thriller and also be the kind of story that makes you think about the nature of self, but Lisa Brideau has managed to do just that. Full of apocalyptic tension, tempered by warm human connection, this is a book that will stay in my memory for life. » ― Marissa Levien, author of The World Gives Way
A former aerospace engineer, Lisa Brideau has a master’s in urban planning from the University of British Columbia and works at the intersection of municipal climate change policy and equity as a sustainability specialist. Recipient of a Canada Council for the Arts grant, Brideau lives in Vancouver, British Columbia, Canada.